Forget Your Name

No one ever told me it would be so hard To forget your name No one ever said it would be this way I've gotta hide my scars No one ever told me it would be so hard To forget your name No one ever said that you would turn away But I'm glad that you're gone The rain fogs my window, I decide to stay in bed The pictures on my wall always make me reminisce I think of all the good times, dread all of the bad times Man I was a clown back then, how the time flies Growin' up is scary man, that's somethin' I'll admit But we all gotta do it, there's no point in hidin' it I miss my innocent youth, and I miss all of the friends That I made throughout the years, it's a trip how all this went Away before we grasped everything we already had True friendships never die, so I guess that's why I'm sad You told me I'm overreacting, but it's just how my mind works Exploding off like fireworks, I've seen so much my eyes hurt I close my eyes again to try to fall back asleep The feeling of your hands still gliding over me Your arms are wrapping 'round me like you're sliding into a fleece My anxiety's warm embrace cuddles me up and never leaves (Yeah) No one ever told me it would be so hard (Be so hard) To forget your name No one ever said it would be this way (Be this way) I've gotta hide my scars No one ever told me it would be so hard (Be so hard) To forget your name No one ever said that you would turn away (Turn away) But I'm glad that you're gone That chorus had to do with the things I thought you'd never do Like invade my head, lay in my bed, and hold me 'till I'm blue Anxiety, I'm through with you, depression, bitch I'm over you You ain't gon' rule me anymore, I'm taking back control from you Every line in this verse is meant to repay for all the pain Every single word for every cut and every blade Every single letter for all the people I let down Every single syllable for the times I wish I'd drown I said I'm fuckin' over you, now get out of my head You had your chance and you had your fun, I'm ruling in your stead Control my mind for several years, and now I'm back to take revenge Repay the debts with everybody and try to go and make amends With these words, I banish you; imma still be standing true You ain't gon' do me like that, I'll never fall and make a fool Out of myself, I really wish that I had learned sooner That once I love myself, the sky will also turn bluer (Aye) No one ever told me it would be so hard (Be so hard) To forget your name No one ever said it would be this way (Be this way) I've gotta hide my scars No one ever told me it would be so hard (Be so hard) To forget your name... I felt threatened now I'm back again My cells trekking through the rapture's end A pacifist and activist for mental health, I practiced it I sat and said I'm actin' dead 'cause I don't know what happens next When everything around you suddenly begins to vanish And the ones you called friends make their distance so outlandish The doctor says I'm buggin' 'cause I fluttered to a higher plane When sunken ships erupt and shit, you expect me not to treasure it How? We see the world through different eyes You see it as a crumbling ball of hate in wicked times I see it as my generation plagued with sickened minds There's probly truth in both, but we'll never know until we die (Yeah) I had a little problem with alcohol It wasn't really a problem, everybody had it The idea is that you always have a little bit of fear Like, you have to just keep at it You know, it's a day by day I was violating my standards quicker than I could lower them You know, no, I'm not always fun to be around And there is this thing of "yeah the world sees one thing And what am I like at home?" Different because I can't always be home Alright listen, I wanna say one thing Everybody here has a dream right? (Yeah) Everybody? Every single person in here? (Yeah) Raise your hand if you have a dream Make sure you follow your dreams Fuck what anybody else tells you to do Follow your dreams, you hear me? (Yeah) Everyone have a good day, alright? (Yeah)