complex

I'm 21, the edge is razor-thin Between being numb and feeling everything Good days only serve as relief again Now I'm watching as I waste away my days and then It's a cross dissolve, it's a scene I've played before And the leading role that I thought I'd hold Doesn't listen to me anymore But I'm wearing his boxers, I'm being a good wife We won't be together, but maybe the next life I need him like water, he lives on a landslide I cry in his bathroom, he turns off the big light I'm being the cool girl, I'm keeping it so tight I carry him home while my friends have a good night I need him like water, he thinks that I'm alright I'm not feeling human, I think he's a good guy But it is complex, it's a complex Triangular, I can see them now Three points at which I let myself down I was just a girl, what's the excuse now? Too regular, this pattern I've Been taking shelter in, reaching new highs When I was 19, I wanted to die Now I just wanna kill you, but I don't wanna paint you the victim And I talk a good game, I'd die for just the promise you'd listen But I'm wearing his boxers, I'm being a good wife We won't be together, but maybe the next life I need him like water, he lives on a landslide I cry in his bathroom, he turns off the big light I'm being the cool girl, I'm keeping it so tight I carry him home while my friends have a good night I need him like water, he thinks that I'm alright I'm not feeling human, I think he's a good guy But it's complex, it's a complex It's a complex, I'm a complex