I don't even get angry anymore

I just close my blinds and lock the door

'Cause I know that they won't understand

I'm alone and stuck with shaking hands

I'm a mess, I'm bleeding on the floor

I try my best, but I need something more

Should I take my life for fuck's sake?

'Cause it's on my mind everyday

I feel too much, bash my head against the wall

Nothing's right, I'm still waiting for your call

Wreck my head, it's always messy by default

Promise me you didn't fill my wounds with salt

I'm always tired so my bones collapse

I traded in my spine for a heart attack

I fucking feel so blind

Everything fades to black

And both my legs go numb

Now I cannot run back

I feel so out of touch

I'm getting way too fucking cynical

I hope I'm enough

'Cause if I'm not, I won't be in pursuit

I know my worth at least a little bit, you doubt that

I'm feeling anxious so if you need me, I'll be out back

But I know you won't come looking

'Cause you couldn't be bothered

Even though you act like I'm your everything, it's awkward

Tsunamis in my stomach won't reside without an offer

So I chief my pen, I hope you don't mind I'm a cougher

If you got shit to say then say it to my face

Watch your mouth before I put you in your place

You better lower your tone when you're speaking to me

I feel just like a god when I'm watching you bleed

Couldn't give less of a fuck about the money 'cause that's lame

I just want catharsis, something that will kill the pain

I do this cause I love it, not a dollar to my name

The drive within my heart will never do this shit in vain

I'm not gonna lie, I haven't got good sleep in ages

When I shut my eyes, my thoughts are flipping through the pages

My head can't stop running, feet are far behind the pavement

Sick of all the static so please let me make a statement

I could not care less about your health or wealth, I'm done

Fighting off the anger, but I'm positive it won

You wore me down just like the nail that lingers on my thumb

If I spoke from my chest, you would just tell everyone

I'm coming lurking between all the shadows

Now I'm the villain, but I'll always win the battles

You were the snake, but I never heard the rattle

My mental boiling mad, now I'm splitting between the atoms

If only I knew what this could've been for

I never would've stayed if you're in this form

Now you got me filling up

'Bout to cause a tidal wave

You can throw our story out

Your plans on the title page

I hope you're praying on my downfall

Because I never wanna see you again

This was never at all my fault

Your heart was always playing pretend

How you gonna look me in the eyes and tell me everything's okay?

Especially after all was done, my heart has started to decay

Nothing will ever mend the bridge between you and I

Here we go our separate ways

Here's our final goodbye