I finally found that jacket

That "Denims are a winter coat" my aunt bought me years ago

I reach into the pockets

And found a crumpled airplane ticket, 2020, Chicago

I used to fly so often

I got high off red eye flights and singing 2000's

Now I work in an office

I rack my mind for reasons why I'm better off without it

I guess I'm fine, life is nice

I'm lucky 'cause I actually really like my nine to five

But I can't lie, deep inside

I'm missing the adrenaline and sleepless nights

And I get this vision that I'm 35

Settled down in the suburbs, someone's wife

I have a picture-perfect, upper middle-class life

And I'm comfortably distracted most of the time

But then I'll see a picture from when I was 19

And get a little jealous of the girl I used to be

I was living in a world of endless possibility

I miss the heartbreak, the chaos, the free

Isn't this what I wanted?

A sense of stability and change in my pocket

But now that I finally have it

I'm finding that the grass ain't as green as they promised

I guess I'm fine, life is nice

I'm lucky 'cause I actually really like my nine to five

But I can't lie, deep inside

I'm missing the adrenaline and sleepless nights

And I get this vision that I'm 35

Settled down in the suburbs, someone's wife

I have a picture-perfect, upper middle-class life

And I'm comfortably distracted most of the time

But then I'll see a picture from when I was 19

And get a little jealous of the girl I used to be

I was living in a world of endless possibility

I miss the heartbreak, the chaos, the free, ohh

I, pray this curse won't last forever

I, feel so somber in discomfort

I'll see a picture from when I was 19 (when I was 19)

And get a little jealous of the girl I used to be (used to be)

I was living in a world of endless possibility

I miss the heartbreak, the chaos, the free