Starting Over

What's it look like in your city?

Take a picture, send it to me

Oh, I think you're kinda busy

I won't ask again

How have you been sleeping lately?

Are you homesick? Do you hate me?

That's not fair of me to say

I'm overthinking it

Staying here was for the best

Till it felt like being left

I should really go to bed, I'm tired and selfish

'Cause I know I'm not the most important anymore

Yeah, that's the consequence of getting out and growing older

I'm not angry, just 'cause I miss you a little more

Yeah, that's what happens when you're not the one who's starting over

I'm a bad friend, I just envy

All this precious time you're spending

With someone, while I'm pretending

That it doesn't hurt

Is it my head? It's so convincing

Screaming you'll forget to miss me

Watch as I just stop existing in your world

'Cause I know I'm not the most important anymore

Yeah, that's the consequence of getting out and growing older

I'm not angry, just 'cause I miss you a little more

Yeah, that's what happens when you're not the one who's starting over

And I'm so happy that you found yourself

You're breathing better, I can tell

It's the only thing that soothes the sting of not having you around

Maybe I've just been too scared to leave

Clinging to childish beliefs

That I could have you forever when that's not how life works out

God, I need to get a grip

Deal with my co-dependent shit

And maybe give my old self what I owe her

Yeah, I think maybe it's time for me to start over