Samsara

When I’m sitting on the train,

Chemicals dancing in my brain,

And I wish the worst of luck to me

I almost miss the teenage years,

Helpless, reckless, god-complex filled,

Anxious masters of our own struggling

We experiment with growth

But patterns pave our every move,

Unconscious wish to never stop…

Just give me one more pill or let me fuckin’ choke,

I won’t die like this but I’d like to struggle more

I always liked the pain, Samsara fills my brain

And I just don’t see the way out anymore

But at least I’m never bored

You want to feel that you are safe,

But once it’s real you can’t behave,

Balance makes you so uncomfortable

You only need one drop of greed,

To finally lose those sweet ideals,

And you’re the animal you’ve always been

One small taste will fill your veins,

You restless fool, You can’t escape

Each religion fights to cease,

How do you heal when it’s on repeat?

Just give me one more pill or let me fuckin’ choke,

I won’t die like this but I’d like to struggle more

I always liked the pain, Samsara fills my brain

And I just don’t see the way out anymore

But at least I’m never bored

Beware, the drama’s gold

And it tastes like caviar

The champagne’s mixed with tears

And the exits are all blocked

I feel nothing way too often

I still want to dissolve.

Let’s be nothing and everything,

Let’s play fucking gods once more

And when we wake up the next morning

With some bad decisions made

The worst hungover will be

Our gracious purgatory, oh

(Purgatory, purgatory, purgatory)

But at least I’m never bored