How long's it gonna take till I figure it out

How could I know

Will I always feel so terrified

Don't need you in my head, still I keep you around

It's up to you though

I'm counting down the outside

Lost my way again, it's the time I fight, it's going too slow

There's only a few reliefs I find

Something about horizontal don't feel right

I can't explain, so I guess I'll sleep at sunrise

Here it comes, I need something to chew

Until it fades away

I don't want to die this way

Thought I'd be over missing you

My lungs don't feel the same

I don't want to die this way

I should focus on what's real, but I don't know how

I'm seeing spirals

I'm scared of what's behind my eyes

God it's never given me a sense of relief

Or just a good sleep

So they can say their goodbyes

Here it comes, I need something to chew

Until it fades away

I don't want to die this way

Though I'd be over missing you

My lungs don't feel the same

I don't want to die this way