Terrible 22's

I recite the lies To keep them in my head She's standing next to me Wishing I was dead But she can't understand What she meant The thoughts you have to choose The synchromatic blues The people you adore in your terrible 22s The ones she calls her friends And she says I'm interested at the thought of you Do what you have to do To make amends Calling me back home in the afternoon What is trust to you? I can't comprehend To pull me closer and drag me under With one last breath With all the power that you have over My darling what did you expect? Is it the drugs kicking in are you there my love? I can hear you round the corner But I cannot lose you no more The uncertainty when it's hard to breathe And I can't stay long And she's speaking to the words unsaid The loneliness When it makes it harder to stand Trust me, the air that I breathe ain't enough And I have second thoughts And though they seem adverse She's screaming when it's better 'Cause when it's better is when it's worse Like when speaking out of turn In false terms And so the night it haunts The memories lay there lost And so I start to wonder But I'm wondering at a cost Hoping something stays forgot As in what? I pull her closer and drag her under, the weight on top With all the power I now have over My darling I will never stop How are the drugs kicking in? Can you my take my love? I can hear you round the corner But I cannot lose you no more The uncertainty when it's hard to breathe And I can't stay long And she's speaking to the words unsaid The loneliness When it makes it harder to stand Trust me, the air that I breathe ain't enough I know it's the end but is this just the Feeling of longing I get when I'm feeling the same? I'm stuck in my ways but inside there is Something that I want to feel when I finally change I know there's nothing left to say Are the drugs kicking in are you There my love? (Are you there my love?) I can hear you round the corner But I cannot lose you no more The uncertainty when it's hard to breathe (Are you there my love?) And I can't stay long And she's speaking to the words unsaid The loneliness When it makes it harder to stand Trust me, the air that I breathe ain't enough The air that I breathe ain't enough