I'm Different Now

I intellectualize my feelings

Then I get high to drown them out

I know the hurt is part of healing

Wish you were here to hold me now

All I can feel is your indifference

Back then, I thought that I deserved it

There's nothing I could do to fix it

I guess, I'm still learning how to live with it

If I was still an optimist

I would just move on from this

But I, I'm different now

Forgave your broken promises

Yeah, I loved you though all of it

But I, I'm different now

Oh, I hope one day I'll love again another way

'Cause I, I'm different now

Drove by your house again last weekend

Remember when it felt like home

I think a part of me's still in there

Do you ever feel my ghost?

I only see you in my nightmares

Sometimes I wish that I could haunt you

What if I'm always gonna be scared?

What if I'm always gonna want you?

If I was still an optimist

I would just move on from this

But I, I'm different now

Forgave your broken promises

Yeah, I loved you though all of it

But I, I'm different now

Oh, I hope one day I'll love again another way

'Cause I, I'm different now

I'm sorry that I wasn't older

Were we ever really friends?

I think I'm finally glad it's over

It still hurts but it hurts less

If I was still an optimist

I would just move on from this

But I, I'm different now

Forgave your broken promises

Yeah, I loved you though all of it

But I, I'm different now

Oh, I hope one day I'll love again another way

'Cause I, I'm different now

Oh, I hope one day I'll love again another way

'Cause I, I'm different now