I Got Heaven

I went and walked myself

Like a dog without a leash

Now I'm growling at a stranger

I am biting at their knees

And if I wanted it, you really think I'd wait for the permission?

For protection and assurances that all would be delivered?

And like our fathers did, our mothers did

And them and those before

And you say you want a difference

The honor to be yours

And like our fathers did, our mothers did

And them and those before

The echo and a retell

Of some shit we've heard before

And what if we stopped spinning?

And what if we're just flat?

And what if Jesus himself ate my fucking snatch?

And what if I'm an angel?

Oh, what if I'm a bore?

And what if I was confident? Would you just hate me more?

Oh, I got heaven inside of me

And oh, I'm an angel

I was sent here

To keep you company

I'm on an endless march to nothingness

With breath inside my chest

And the promise of a life

That you deserve, that you thought best

I'm stuck inside my loneliness

I'm stuck inside my grief

I wish I could have been there

To save you from the reach

I am spiteful like a god

Seek a vengeance like the rest

For what they did to you

I will never lay to rest

It's raw and unrelenting

It is absolute regression

It is vileness wrapped up

And disguised as happy endings

Oh, I got heaven inside of me

Oh, I'm an angel

I was sent here

To keep you company

I'm stuck inside my loneliness

I'm stuck inside my grief

I wish I could have been there

To save you from the reach

I am spiteful like a god

I seek a vengeance like the rest

For what they did to you

I will never lay to rest

I got up and walked myself outside

Like a dog without a leash

Now I'm growling at a stranger

I am biting at their knees