Dissimulation

Now that I've opened up my eyes

I spin my wheels wondering if I'll ever find my rest

While wondering if I deserve the best

Should I give up all that is left of me?

I continue to throw away my days

If lying always seems to make this stay

At what cost would I pay to find the strength to change?

I continue to throw away my days and lie to make this stay

A way that no longer makes sense to me

Why am I falling down?

I cry for everyone else's help but their heads were turned

Burning every last shred of me down cause it's what you want

I just smile and say your wish is my command

Then I fake myself to fulfill your every demand

I push myself aside, it's all I've ever known

If this is what I want, why can't I stop running?

Running in shame clinging tightly to a realm

So far away crowded with all these things I strive for

I watch as my life slowly starts to spin out of control

I cry for help because I feel my soul is getting cold

I continue to throw away my days and lie to make this stay

A way that no longer makes sense to me

Why am I falling down?

I can't turn back now, there's too much at stake

Am I stuck wondering why?

Watching this world pass me by

Is this how it ends?

No, this won't be where I lay my head down to die

So numb on the inside, content to watch this world burn

No, this won't be where I lay my head down to die

I'm so lost on the inside, can anyone save me?

I continue to throw away my days and lie to make this stay

A way that no longer makes sense to me

Why am I falling down?

(Why am I)

(Why am I)

(Why am I)