Afraid of Heights

I know that I fucked up when I

Told you I'm afraid of heights

It made you want to test my courage

You made me climb a cliff at night

You wanted me to jump, and I declined

You called me a coward, I replied

"I don't want to live forever

But I don't want to die tonight "

When the black water ate you up

Like a sugarcube in a teacup

I got the point you were making

When I held my breath till you came up

There's been a run of fires downtown

On half-built construction sites

I know you never liked a townhouse

I've seen you climb a crane at night

If they ever catch you at it

I know you'd want me to be proud

That you took a rich man's dream

And brought it with you on your way down

'Cause one man's dream is another man's death

I remember when you told me that

Didn't know what to say, so I just laughed

But now I know it's not funny

I never rode a motorcycle

I never smoked a cigarette

I want to live a vibrant life

But I want to die a boring death

I know I was a disappointment

Knew you wanted me to take a risk

Not everybody gets the chance to live

A life that isn't dangerous

You called me a crybaby

But you're the one who got teary

Telling me what you believe

How we're stuck in entropy

How it hurts to hope

Oh, it hurts to hope for more

Oh, it hurts to hope the future

Will be better than before