Why am I alive?

Please tell me why am I alive?

I just don't know who to bee

It's got me breaking out in hives

Maybe I should take a leave

Maybe that would make the pain subside

And I'd go searching for the key, but I don't even have the drive

My mind been working in overdrive

And my mind been putting in overtime

Now my time is up, I can't live a lie

No I can't

I can't

Can't sit calm for your entertainment

I can't evolve if I'm this complacent

I can't resolve to get up and chase it

God damn

God damn

I run as fast as I can

But I can't keep up with these expectations

And all the things you demand

Demand, demand, I wanna feel like the man

Supply yourself with some clout so you can enhance your personal brand

My mind been telling me one thing

But my heart been telling me different

My heart been saying let's run away

But my mind been telling me sit in it

I'm gifted, I'm twisted, I'd tear it up like I'm Shiffrin

These two facets move super fast so it always feels like I'm drifting

Away, okay, just listen here when I say

When I sit in silence my mind is violent

Dog that's what led me astray

My mind been running in circles every damn night

I think I'm caught in a loop

Please god just give me a sign

I go round and round on this carousel

Had enough of these teacups I don't wanna live in your fairytale

Work harder bro, work harder let's fly high like a parasail

Honestly I don't give a fuck I just wanna know that I dared to fail

I feel dark inside, what's that about?

No lights like a roundabout

I've been driving in circles lately, no GPS, I can't find the route

I can't find the root of my self-doubt

See the mirror and I count him out

Tell myself to just do my best

But I can't adhere, I won't stick it out

My mind been telling me one thing

But my heart been telling me different

My heart been saying let's run away

But my mind been telling me sit in it

I'm gifted, I'm twisted, I'd tear it up like I'm Shiffrin

These two facets move super fast so it always feels like I'm drifting

Away, okay, just listen here when I say

When I sit in silence my mind is violent

Dog that's what led me astray

My mind been running in circles every damn night

I think I'm caught in a loop

Please god just give me a sign

I'm a bulldog, check my pedigree

Always barking up the tree, it's an evergreen

I got some things that you've never seen

Square up with an MC, I brought the fuckin energy

I brought some, ay, I brought some water to the roots

I paid my dues just so I could share the fruit, like, ay

And if I keep you in the loop

No doubt about it they gonna hang this in the Louvre, yea

And I can make her dance

I can make her move just by giving her a glance

I know what she want just by looking in her eyes

Shawty wanna bang a rapper, I ain't giving her the Chance

Ay

Just call me TSA

Cuz I won't let it fly if you're getting in my face

Danny catching lines like he serving up an ace

I need Cain to let it ride, I just wanna feel the bass

I was spacing out at the ceiling

Erasing what I'm revealing

Was aching but now I'm healing, yea I'm in control

I've been facing all of my demons

Embracing all of my feelings

Been tasting what I was dreaming, now I want some more

I got some things that you oughta see

Homer Simpson prophecy

Tell you what I do and then I do it with some modesty

Nah fuck the modesty, baby I'm a prodigy

People really calling me Osama they been lauding me

Ay

And I went searching for that feeling

Boy's so sick I've been ripping the penicillin

I put the pen on the ceiling but the writing's on the wall

Looking in the mirror like who's the baddest of them all?

I'm a dog

All my fears are gone

Took a couple years but I knew it all along

I was in the weeds, now I'm high without a bong

Cuz I think I finally realized if I put it in a song

You could say that

I'm a bulldog, check my pedigree

Always barking up the tree, it's an evergreen

I got some things that you've never seen

Square up with an MC, I brought the fuckin energy

I brought some, ay, I brought some water to the roots

I paid my dues just so I could share the fruit, like, ay

And if I keep you in the loop

No doubt about it they gonna hang this in the Louvre

Run it

They gonna hang this in the Louvre

Lemme show you what I do

And I ain't got nothing to lose