This is something that controls me
I don't wanna fight what I can't see
While I build myself a new reality, reality
Try to miss it but I can't
Redefining your comfort
Try to pretend it never happened at all
But I've already tried that
I feel nothin'
Just a strategy, I'm playing
I can't spell it out
My thoughts are rushing
Being in suspense for nothing (for nothing)
Does it matter but I have to try
I don't wanna but I lose the fight
Can I make it so to make it feel alright
Sit here waste my time (yeah)
Try to miss it but I can't
Redefining my comfort
Try to pretend it never happened at all
But I've already tried that
I feel nothin'
Just a strategy, I'm playing
I can't spell it out
My thoughts are rushing
Being in suspense for nothing (for nuthing)
I don't wanna try to constantly
Perfecting my life
I don't wanna know what
I could have become but I'm not
I don't think much about it
I don't think I should
And don't be rule-abiding
But I don't think I'm
