Too Hard

I'm like a haunted house with a warning sign That the neighborhood kids explore on Friday nights Know what they're walking into and then are still afraid When the floors speak or the door shuts on its down I'm the oversized luggage that you weighed in your room twice That you knew wouldn't make it on the flight So you stay back and watch your plane fly Because you couldn't bear to leave me behind What if this is all I'm meant for? And I've been doomed from my start What if this is all I'm meant for? Is loving me just way too hard? Is loving me just way too hard? I'm scared of living but I don't know much else Is this the best it's gonna get? And I wish I could see myself through my dog's eyes As loving and capable and kind And in another universe I remember my dreams And over there I'm self aware And over there I know how to make myself feel better When I'm kicking and screaming like a child What of this is all I'm meant for? The extra weight that drowns the lifeboat What if this is all I'm meant for? To run away when things get hard? And loving me was way too hard Loving me was way too hard