Four summers ago, I met somebody

I was nineteen years old

He was too

Most of the day I would see him, and his smile

Until it was time to sleep

Sleep I would often share with him

By the time I realized I was in love, it was malignant

It was hopeless

There was no escaping,

No negotiating

It was my first love, it changed my life

Back then, my mind would wander to the women I had been with

the ones I cared for and thought I was in love with.

I realized too much, too quickly

And I could be a pretty girl, I'll wear a skirt for you

And I could be a pretty girl, shut up when you want me to

And I could be a pretty girl, never make you blue

And I could be a pretty girl, I lose myself in you

I was so blinded by you

Now I cry, just thinking about the fool that I was

I was such a fool, I'm alone now, but it's better for me

I don't need all your negativity

And I could be a pretty girl, I'll wear a skirt for you

And I could be a pretty girl, shut up when you want me to

And I could be a pretty girl, never make you blue

And I could be a pretty girl, I lose myself in you