Like My Father

I'm being exhausting again, nothing new He doesn't deserve it but he's picking up the pieces I'm being annoying again, nothing new He'll leave in the night when he gets tired of being patient In my defense My family's complicated And I do my best But trying's overrated When there's nothing left to save So I push it all away And I don't believe him when he tells me i'm pretty Tell myself that he doesn't need me I need him like the air I breathe He's run out of words and I'm just running on empty Say things I don't mean then say sorry I need him the way I need water But if he's anything, anything like my father Then he's gonna leave me Cry in the bathroom again, nothing new Trying to keep quiet's always harder than it used to He's asking what's wrong, I say 'nothing new' Lying, 'I'm just tired', but he always sees right through My feelings aren't safe So I'll take them to the grave And I don't believe him when he tells me i'm pretty Tell myself that he doesn't need me I need him like the air I breathe He's run out of words and I'm just running on empty Say things I don't mean then say sorry I need him the way I need water But if he's anything, anything like my father Then he's gonna leave me Hangs like a dead weight on my neck Ripples like a butterfly effect I need to, I need to remember That he's nothing, nothing like my father He's not gonna leave me But I still don't believe him when he tells me I'm pretty Tell myself that he doesn't need me I need him like the air I breathe He's run out of words and I'm just running on empty Say things I don't mean then say sorry I need him the way I need water But if he's anything, anything like my father Then he's gonna leave me