Used to wanna run away

Find myself another day

Used to wanna try to quit like I get high another way

Used to crave the rain but I'm missing all the summer days

Used to wanna think how one day I would have a ton of plays

That was back then but I'm living right now

Had a bunch of bad friends but they chilling right now

Talking 'bout my music, laughing, telling all them jokes

Shake my hand when they see me, ask me if I'm tryna smoke

But no matter where I go, I think everyone's my foe

I think everyone's my enemy and everybody knows

I let everything get ruined 'cause I'm too scared to be happy

'Cause every time I smile that's when life used to come at me

My back is up against the wall, I feel it cracking

I'm trapped in my mind, it's like these demons overlapping

And laughing at all the pain I'm feeling from this rapping

It's sad when your passion turn to another past tense

I'm grabbing every chance I got to grab the wheel and up and leave

And I hope when I disappear no one remember me

And I hope when they see me they all think of how it be

When I was all alone and ain't no one was helping me

And every time I stare out at the lights I think of me

Walking 'round New York when I had just turned seventeen

And thinking one day I'll be living here and feeling free

And one day all this pain will turn into a memory

Sometimes I don't even wanna go to sleep

Sometimes it's too hard to even wanna try to eat

Sometimes I feel let down staring at my feet

Why is every single dream better than reality?

Sometimes I realize I'm closer to the end

Sometimes I just wanna tell the world I need a friend

Sometimes I get down but I bring me up again

Used to wanna try to live but I'm dying to pretend, yeah

Every song is just the same lines

The same bullshit, the same beats playing at the same time

The same days working 'til the day became night

The same hard work just to stack and save dimes

Trash, I'm late to class, I hate this glass

Because it's always half full even painted black

And even though I take it back

I remember wishing life would make it break in half

I remember finding love, I was thinking damn

It's the second heartbreak that will make a man

'Cause it's after they're gone when you make a plan

When you praying that an album could make a grand

Take me back to the days of my part time

Because now every worst day just seem like a hard time

I been feeling like a lost mind

Because I'm looking at your heart so I know I gotta guard mine

Sometimes I don't even wanna go to sleep

Sometimes it's too hard to even wanna try to eat

Sometimes I feel let down staring at my feet

Why is every single dream better than reality?

Sometimes I realize I'm closer to the end

Sometimes I just wanna tell the world I need a friend

Sometimes I get down but I bring me up again

Used to wanna try to live but I'm dying to pretend, yeah

Sometimes I don't even wanna go to sleep

Sometimes it's too hard to even wanna try to eat

Sometimes I feel let down staring at my feet

Why is every single dream better than reality?

Sometimes I realize I'm closer to the end

Sometimes I just wanna tell the world I need a friend

Sometimes I get down but I bring me up again

Used to wanna try to live but I'm dying to pretend, yeah

Sometimes I don't even wanna go to sleep

Sometimes it's too hard to even wanna try to eat

Sometimes I feel let down staring at my feet

Why is every single dream better than reality?

Sometimes I realize I'm closer to the end

Sometimes I just wanna tell the world I need a friend

Sometimes I get down but I bring me up again

Used to wanna try to live but I'm dying to pretend, yeah