Stillness, Stop

I'm not asking you to kill me softly, it's an order Do not kill me at all I don't know if it's for isolation or protection That we put up these walls I'm not trying to be inoffensive And force myself to be the empathic one I'm not asking you, the picture's crystal clear now Don't even try to touch me A lot of people say my dog is crazy She's a doubter, she doesn't trust no one 'Cause everybody likes to have somebody, a companion When the rules are their own They brag about some sense of community It's easy if your identity allows you to What a train of words, what a train of words What a train wreck I have been told, "Try not to think about it Make an effort, this is all in your head" Now, would you tell somebody In this fucking dirty city, "Try not to breathe toxic air"? I wish I didn't feel everything so much I know, this is a blessing and yet a curse There's a hole right in my tummy that won't fill up I'm just so sick of it Reject the expectations, live the present, live the moment This way it can't go wrong But I keep feeling like some kind of separate understudy Not even living their life I'm done with being mannered, behaving well This time I just won't make any sense at all I don't want a partner who doesn't make me Feel good about myself