I forgot how to socialize

It's embarrassing and I don't know why

I could stay up all through the night

Just rethinking what I would say better next time

At some point I got insecure

I care too much about the words

That come out of my mouth

How do people do it

Theirs just keeps on moving

I wanna talk to someone without feeling anxious

Think I'm no fun with our conversations

Oh all I want right now

Is to calm right down

And not overthink my every word

Talk to someone without my heart racing

So I escape to my imagination

Oh all I want right now

Is to see myself living in another universe

I hope my alter ego is an extrovert

I think I would be happier that way

Maybe I would have more friends, go out to the parties often

I would be invited places, get along with everyone I meet

I won't feel bad Saturday night at home watching TV no

I wouldn't think I'm missing out

I'm always there right in the crowd

I'd probably drown if I was there now

I'd hate that, wanna get out

Cause is that how I should be, what I should like

These questions are swallowing me

Would I be a better version of myself?

That's what I would like to believe but

It's all a dream, I'll never be that ver-version of me

I always see when I can't fall asleep imagining me talk-talking away

Have so much to say I

I just don't

I'm good with listening in, they think I'm bored but I'm interested

Not good at showing it, this how I live

There's nothing wrong with that but

At some point I got insecure

I care too much about the words

That come out my mouth

How do people do it

Theirs just keeps on moving

I wanna talk to someone without feeling anxious

Think I'm no fun with our conversations

Oh all I want right now

Is to calm right down

And not overthink my every word

Talk to someone without my heart racing

So I escape to my imagination

Oh all I want right now

Is to see myself living in another universe

I hope my alter ego is an extrovert

I hope my alter ego is an extrovert