Meant To Be

Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be

I live an hour from the town where I grew up

It's been a decade since the first time I threw up

Still feel the pressure, hyperventilating

Over numbers on a page that could make or break me

60 minutes from the house of my first love

30 miles from where I threw my first punch

A cracked rib and the taste of the pavement

Heard a voice say, "Yeah you'll make it, if you just

Take it slow," no, I wanna speed up

Towards a goal I could never dream up at 15

But what do you know at 15? Now I

Stare at the reflection looking back at me

Praying to a god this isn't make believe

Hoping that one day I'll find some inner peace

Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be

Every time I look, I see a different face

But I don't wanna change depending on the place

Hoping that one day I'll find some inner peace

Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be

Graduated, got a degree

In a field, in a city I'll never see again

And I'm still wondering when

I'll feel

Happy with the choices I've made

The people I've lost, the bridges I break

The stakes, they seem higher now

So far from the ground, I should

Take it slow, no, I wanna speed up

Towards a goal, I could never dream up at 15

But what do you know at 15? Now I

Stare at the reflection looking back at me

Praying to a god this isn't make believe

Hoping that one day I'll find some inner peace

Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be

Every time I look, I see a different face

But I don't wanna change depending on the place

Hoping that one day I'll find some inner peace

Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be

I just wanna quiet all the voices in my head

Saying, "You won't ever make it in the end"

I just wanna block out all the pain and the hate

From the people I used to call my friends

I just wanna rest but the stress causes pain in my chest

Yeah, making it hard to breath

I just wanna wake up in the morning and be proud of me, now I

Stare at the reflection looking back at me

Praying to a god this isn't make believe

Hoping that one day I'll find some inner peace

Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be

Every time I look I see a different face

But I don't wanna change depending on the place

Hoping that one day I'll find some inner peace

Maybe who I am is who I was meant to be