I thought I saw you in the background
Of your favorite neon scene
I thought I saw us on the television
The new American dream
I thought maybe we could make it
With the chemistry in my brain
But now I just fake it
I feel it slip away
Bottle it up but my ego's bleeding
Swallow my pride while I take a beating
Bottle it up so that I can keep you safe
You were the one I needed
But I'm the one who changed
The only things I think about is sex and death
I'm running out of time and out of breath
I don't know what I'm doing but I can't say no
And I'm really okay dying all alone
Why don't you tell me what's wrong with me
And why I've been dodging my destiny oh no
Got some things I can't let go
Bottle it up but my ego's bleeding
Swallow my pride while I take a beating
Bottle it up so that I can keep you safe
You were the one I needed
But I'm the one who changed
I think I finally understand
But then you slip right through my hands
Exactly like they planned it all along
Bottle it up but my ego's bleeding
But my ego's bleeding
Bottle it up but my ego's bleeding
Swallow my pride while I take a beating
Bottle it up so that I can keep you safe
You were the one I needed
But I'm the one who changed
