I gotta tell you, I’m kind of a mess

Live thru the day just to get to the next

Can’t return calls, never mind send a text

The monster inside, it don’t get any rest

Stare into the hole that surrounds all of this

If it has a purpose, I don’t know what it is

Next thing you know, you’re afraid to exist

What’s another word for total paralysis?

As soon as possible, I’m breaking out of here

I’m gonna dig a hole/my soul to freedom or die trying

Cause there’s no hospital can cure me of the fear

That my first move could be my last

It’s lying in wait for the signal to sound

A sleeper agent with orders to cut me down

Every positive feeling underscored by a frown

At war with my mind and I keep losing ground

A congress of cowards ruling over my id

And the monster inside is just a scared little kid

Hiding under the steps, trying not to get hit

It’s getting so hard to forgive and forget

When he knows what he did

As soon as possible, I’m breaking out of here

I’m gonna dig my soul to freedom or die trying

Cause there’s no hospital can cure me of the fear

That my first move could be my last

Something I needed to get off my chest

But now that I’ve told you, wish I’d never confessed