Lifeline

My fingers grasp the bathroom sink

I roll down my sleeves and I grab my drink

Easy to run when no one sees

The scars and secrets underneath

Every flaw is magnified

Promised myself I'd do better

But I lied

I read the instructions front to back

On how to care for my body

But my body cracked

Losing control is everything I've known

And I keep betraying myself

I'm possessed

A goddamn mess

And I keep betraying myself

Habitual bullshit's my demise

I crumble down just to feel high

Tell me there's something left to revive

I'm calling for

Calling for a lifeline

It's like my heart's fighting my brain

When I remember what I weigh

My therapist says your worth so much more

Then that number reflected on the floor

Stopped counting calories

Tossed the scale

So why does it feel like I still failed

Losing control is everything I've known

And I keep betraying myself

I'm possessed

A goddamn mess

And I keep betraying myself

Habitual bullshit's my demise

I crumble down just to feel high

Tell me there's something left to revive

I'm calling for

Calling for a lifeline

Don't wanna be

A living tragedy

Be such a travesty

A damn disease

Need to protect my

My precious energy

Can you help me

Help me breathe

Oh

Don't wanna be

My own worst enemy

'Cause I should be

A warrior for me

How do I live

Live happily

Can you help me

Help me breathe

Losing control is everything I've known

And I keep betraying myself

I'm possessed

A goddamn mess

And I keep betraying myself

Habitual bullshit's my demise

I crumble down just to feel high

Tell me there's something left to revive

I'm calling for

Calling for a life

I'm calling for

Calling for a lifeline