Pity Party (feat. Minas)

Pity party

Cos there's nothing to celebrate

Empty show

I'm in centre stage

Leave the microphone

It's only me home

Need my time alone

Oh don't we know

Old enough to forget

All my imaginary friends

Young enough to hope

That there's a chance for me yet

No sob story for me

This isn't x factor

One step for mankind

A couple steps backwards

Oh woe is me, Woe is me

Oh my poetry

Oh so deep As the ocean seas

Oh cliche cliche

I don't want no parties

On my bday

All my negative memories

Stay on replay

Broken record

Hang the DJ

Don't write a lot of

Bangers these days

It's just me, my room

An impending sense of doom

Writing on the walls before

Flying through the roof

The brighter part of human kind will fall apart,

There ain’t comedy in love like ours,

Trailblazing our way allow the planet I got seven fucking plastic water bottles filled with what I found em in.

Fat holes with caskets in,

Grassland no man’s land I’ll backhand compliment you.

Tears of the former, tears of the former

I'm sorry for wasting your time

I'm sorry I'm always late

I'm sorry I barely woke up today

I'm sorry for feeling more pain than it's logical to feel over small things that I should've been able to let go

I'm sorry about the mess

I'm sorry if I come across a little awkward or unfriendly

I don't mean to be cold but my body freezes up and I don't know what to do

I'm sorry I haven't had a chance to decorate, like

I should probably get some house plants or wall pictures or something

I'm sorry I didn't make it to your party

I'm sorry for all the excuses

I'm sorry for being so boring

I'm sorry about the noise

Oh you can't hear it? Don't worry then

I'm really sorry for always feeling so sorry for myself

I'm sorry for always making these stupid depressing songs, I'm really trying to change

I'm sorry I never lived up to my potential

I'm sorry for losing hope and optimism and settling for survival and just getting by

I know I probably could've done more

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

Cleaned the house

For all the guests that never showed up

For such a hopeless man

I sure know how to get my hopes up

Heard the key to happiness

Was living in the moment

To be honest though

I'd rather live anywhere but right now

Bliss is skipping hours

With the night lights out

Picture nothing sicker

Than a life lied down

The death of the party

Here to dance on the grave

Fall in the hole, climb out

And party again

For every day I feel this way

And it just can't be explained

Partly I'm proud and I'm partly ashamed

Partly pushing but the

Harder that I try it seems

It's harder to change

Past the pain it's

Only darkness again

Every plan we rearrange

Until we never rearrange

If you see a ray of light

On closer sight it's really grey

I need forgiveness for my sins

I'm giving in, I been the synonym

Of hiding at the slightest sight

Of trying situations

Fear possess my body

Any time I try to face it

The neighbours probably think

I ain't been staying here in ages

Everybody else just found

A way of behaving

That didn't leave them so

Alienated, I dunno

Maybe it's inherited

From ones closely related

Maybe it's a product of the

Friends I used to play with

Maybe it's an ex, maybe the

Chemicals I'm making

Or maybe it's a problem

I've created

Their presence is misplaced,

My friends I thought were saved remain on sidelines feeling hopeful again,

Watching myself fall deeper again.

Harsh critics are these slaves to hope for better days,

I don’t seem to fit into they’re predictions for when the sun is saved.

Or how their future’s shaped.

I’ve been misled by a liar,

Most of us have fallen too,

Reaping these remains,

That more of us had fallen to.

I’d say I’m ashamed,

But no one here to say that to,

It stinks of rotten fame,

Recognised for bearing through,

All of this disdain,

It tastes just like these pennies do,

I’m waiting here again,

For someone just to venture through