No need to look back and I wouldn't if I could

Tears I can't hold back, no I finally know that

Because of you I've witnessed prayers come true

There's nothing I can do to make the past right

So I'ma make the last time the last time

Yeah yeah yeah yeah

My mama did the best she could

Purse hurting her shoulder from all the heavy books

Single black mother without a man receiving petty looks

If she could do it all on her own I truly bet she would

Let a hood make me a statistic, oh no never that

My Nana watched me as she worked to get a better bag

Close I had would always sag and never had a tag

But still was glad to rip hand me downs out the plastic bag

I was her first kid and she ain't had me on purpose

Could've aborted me after donor of sperm dipped

Growing up was aggravated that she's hurting

But we did find residing above the surface

I wonder why my father never got that wedding ring

I wonder if he stuck around would we have better things

Never mind we both smiling and we overcame

So even if I could I wouldn't change a thing

No need to look back and I wouldn't if I could

Tears I can't hold back, no I finally know that

Because of you I've witnessed prayers come true

There's nothing I can do to make the past right

So I'ma make the last time the last time

Yeah yeah yeah yeah

My father did the best he can

He's done some wrong in his life but now he's a better man

I navigated manhood without a helping hand

But so did he, damn, grandfather wasn't grand

Left him abandoned to be abused

I couldn't see that my views of misuse could be misconstrued

My father would cause a bruise but only taught what he knew

I was caught in the fumes of hatred

My heart was aching, but God had sent a replacement

And now we have conversations

Weekly and almost daily

I forgive all the times that he ghosted his little baby

My new interpretation is hey we all make mistakes

But the day that the situation has changed

It can wash away all the pain

Bonding over the tribulations that we overcame

I rap better than my dad he probably won't say the same

Yeah we all got regrets so I won't give him shame

If we could do it again I probably won't change a thing

No need to look back and I wouldn't if I could

Tears I can't hold back, no I finally know that

Because of you I've witnessed prayers come true

There's nothing I can do to make the past right

So I'ma make the last time the last time

Yeah yeah yeah yeah

I'll wait for you

Only God can choose

I prayed for you

I'll do better Inshallah

Found happiness in the brown of your mama's eyes

As an emotional little boy my tears I tried to hide

Being our color was taught that there's never a time to cry

But I was wrong

Every word and a song that I would write

Alleviating my plights and bringing ease through the nights

They think I do it for money when really it's something like

Journaling, I just let it go public so I can guide

Mitigate all the strife before

I used to do this for the world, but now I have something more

Another reason to live, someone that I can fight for

I hustle hard as my mama, but I will see you mature

Correct my father's erratums through every step that I'm taking

I supplicate to the greatest to keep you sheltered from Satan

I promise to give you help and anything you need Aid in

My deprivation has purpose in your very creation

No need to look back and I wouldn't if I could

Tears I can't hold back, no I finally know that

Because of you I've witnessed prayers come true

There's nothing I can do to make the past right

So I'ma make the last time the last time

Yeah yeah yeah yeah

I'll wait for you

Only God can choose

I prayed for you

I'll wait for you

Only God can choose

I prayed for you