Ballad of Billy

Talking to you that night, the light was low

I promised to you that I would never go

But you left me, and you took with you all that I knew

About myself and about a life I thought I could choose

Well, it was never in the cards

And that I have to show

I'm a piece of shit, I'm a hypocrite

Oh buddy, don't I know

What I take from you, I give to me

I'm a burden just to know

But I'll change, yeah, I'll change, but I'll change

I'm leaving my mind behind 'cause nothing true can stay

The ice in my veins will always get warm

And the insides of my brain, well, they might be torn

But it's all in vain, yeah, it's all in vain, it's all in my veins

If you think we're busy living, well, we must be dying too

'Cause there's only so long you can live at this altitude

I've been cruising, been sleeping, been running, been tweaking, been lying for so long

Now my only way to talk is through Billy's song

It was never in the cards

And that I have to show

I'm a piece of shit, I'm a hypocrite

Oh buddy, don't I know

What I take from you, I give to me

I'm a burden just to know

But I'll change, yeah, I'll change, but I'll change

'Cause it's always the same with Billy

No strings attached, yet tangled, what a pity

And inside of Billy's chest is a stolen heart of gold

And it's painfully pounding against his ribs, hard and cold

Promises, promises, all the lies he told

To mend the fragments of what once was whole

Tragedy won't make us any kinder

He'll stumble and falter

That's the ballad of our lost brother

It was never in the cards

And that I have to show

I'm a piece of shit, I'm a hypocrite

Oh buddy, don't I know

What I take from you, I give to me

I'm a burden just to know

But I'll change, but I'll change, but I'll change