I find it hard to sit still

So I just fidget with this pen

They’ll probably call this shit skill

But really it’s these hours I spent

Cost too much for me to call it gift

All this doubt, self clowning, dead friendships

Learned how to vent it out in a sentence

Or some indirect verbiage

What’s the word for when you’re only finding worth in the work?

Chase perfection but I wonder

Is its worth it when my time is adjourned

God damn, I miss them days

When we was slanging tang juice

For three dimes on the curb

Ignorant to the world but still observant

All we knew was we would take this shit further

Than a million furlongs

Life’s a gamble boy this wagers unheard of

I place my bets in myself

That’s all I’m use to

Make the trade from deprecation to respect

And it’s insane the way the universe will step in and help

Almost like I choose you

I’ve been running

But I know I got some laps to go

I fell a few times

But it won’t stunt my growth

To put my life on the line’s the only life I know

Outa pocket, outa hand like some dice on a roll

I’ve been running

But I know I got some laps to go

I fell a few times

But it won’t stunt my growth

To put my life on the line’s the only life I know

Outa pocket, outa hand, this some stuff y’all know

Young prince, my reigns rightful

More Simba than I am that kid Joffrey or Scar

They see a race to get the throne

I’m seeing all that I’m responsible for

With my pops on the rock

And on the verge of getting locked

All my moms and little sister really got

Is me and Jayden left to change the situation

Its been time to man up

We gotta face it

What a roundabout way for a couple of kids

To get a glimpse of inner greatness

It took a minute for me to witness who Gage is

Sketching out the image in these workout composition book pages

That I paid for with change

Scraping by but I know its not forever

Dog it can’t be

I’m praying to god, like Marcus Stanley

Except I’m standing on my ten toes

Out here more than hopeful

Imma see this shit go tenfold

All this shit depends on me

No stalling from exhaustion, just keep running because the end I can see

I’ve been running

But I know I got some laps to go

I fell a few times

But it won’t stunt my growth

To put my life on the line’s the only life I know

Outa pocket, outa hand like some dice on a roll

I’ve been running

But I know I got some laps to go

I fell a few times

But it won’t stunt my growth

To put my life on the line’s the only life I know

Outa pocket, outa hand, this some stuff y’all know