Not What I Want

Crushing on her old perfume

Chain-smoked all her bad habits

I was too much good for her broken little life

Used to call me baby, get drunk and fight like crazy

Just lipstick stains and blacked out petty lies

And now I hate the songs that we used to love

Cause every single line in my head gets stuck

And all these words are just regrets of us

And that's the hardest part

Knowing that she always loved me wrong

Wrecked my head and played games with my heart

Then she was up and gone, made me write this stupid song

Now I'll never get what I want

Not not gonna get what I want

Took down all your pictures

Ghosted all my feelings

Quick and cheap like your favorite discount wine

Use to say you loved me

Now you're so above me

Living the live while I'm trying to survive

And that's the hardest part

Knowing that she always loved me wrong

Wrecked my head and played games with my heart

Then she was up and gone, made me write this stupid song

Now I'll never get what I want

Not not gonna get what I want

 

Wish I could hit restart

Find someone who won't destroy my heart

And that's the hardest part

Knowing that she always loved me wrong

Wrecked my head and played games with my heart

Then she was up and gone, made me write this stupid song

Now I'll never get what I want

Not not gonna get what I want