Double Down

I turned into every insult

I used to eat for lunch

But I slept beside nearly half those guys

So tell me who's the gay one

'Cause the sun still says my best defense is

To dig my heels straight in

And double down

The way I always have, smile like nothing's wrong

While I calculate when I last saw my friends' moms

Do they know I cut my hair? I'm someone's son now

I grew into all the wishes

I made on stray eyelashes

But never saw myself living for the day

Some shithead kid calls me the correct slur and gets away

'Cause the moon still says to hold my head

Where no one else can reach it

And double down

The way I always have, smile like nothing's wrong

While I calculate when I last saw my friends' moms

Do they know I cut my hair? I'm someone's son now

My rising's hard at work, I guess

At least that's what Pauli said

If I can't trust myself, I'll hear her out

I love the name my family chose

Don't mind my voice is high

I know she'd be proud

The girl who

Doubled down

Punched above her weight and prayed that she was wrong

Got a phone call yesterday from her friend's mom

We trade, "I love you's"

I cut my hair, I'm someone's son now

Someone's son now

I'm someone's son now

From sun up clear to sun down