I lost my mind I lost my senses I earned the fees of my offenses when I failed to weigh the consequences The life I knew was quite pretentious

Yeah, I was fronting for y’all being something I’m not willing to die for a block willing to kill on a call not fearing nothing all

They could’ve murdered me They had me at their mercy but you didn’t let them hurt me liberated by your verdict I knew this was your doing no proof but certainty I needed you urgently your words start burning me

I was left for dead almost expired when the danger was near and the time was dire You pulled me out the muck and mire it was not of me it was your desire nowadays the blood is my attire

I was headed towards death on my way to fire though I couldn’t see it being blinded by demons….

Debauchery weekends I would dive off the deep end

Popping them Percocet sipping promethazine

Know I was never clean know I was never clean I used to be high and Unhappy i used to be floating and down my friends wouldn’t won’t me around

See I was Oscar the grouch cuz I complained while in chains With Philosophical questions i use to rain on parades

Why are we at the bottom what is the meaning of life where do we go when we die something about this not right

I was in need for answers I was in need of truths (back then I didn’t believe in you) echo

Always felt like sum was missing just ant have the courage of my convictions Serving the man of sin employed by the father of lies searching for advantages, but ain’t no short cuts in life

Now Let me get this off my chest

On how I loved my wickedness

Tho The crimes I would commit

Was not that lucrative

I’m spiting facts no counterfeit

I looked at a stack like that was rich

I use to stay with the rod broad day with the rod tote them k’s with my boys And If I was ever caught I Would’ve been guilty as charged doing time on a yard behind fence & guards

When I look back I was wrong still you didn’t leave me alone I was absent yet beloved I was Quarrelsome & toxic in a dungeon, you would find me tell Satan get behind me I am fighting unseen forces I seen them manifested, my mother can profess this Most of my Bros I’ve lost it’s like it’s all my fault

As I read your holy book

I learned your righteous ways

Started to feel the tug when I resisted the tug you spoke in circumstance you brought me to my knees no one could pick me up in the darkness I would plea for your gracious sympathy

Your truth has set me free

Try him you will see

In your word, I abide

That old me crucified

Lord please Direct my steps,

And let no sin have dominion

I mean what I say I’m not pretending

Isolated me from the devil and his minions

And I know he still can tempt me but it’s alright cause you’ll be with me

If you knew you were the workmanship, of god I promise you wouldn’t slide you would have a different will different drive

Lord can I be your former

Can I plant some seeds for you

I’ll even water them too

And watch you do the increase

I pray you reap a harvest

Cuz tomorrow We’re not promised

Our lives are just a vapor, it’s finite to your table

I’ll grow in education you gave me determination soaring through their expectations I aim to worship you, no matter what they do, no matter what they say because you made a way

And I didn’t do this for perks knowing one day you’ll test my works) and find the hidden intent. But I did nothing (without your consent)