(You Know Harlz Made It)

I still can't believe that the darkness took him

I ain't ever felt pain like this

I can't break now cuz I gotta try be there for James's kids

Watching my mum fall down to her knees

With her hands on her face

Screaming at the ceiling

Saying please don't take him we need him

Begging to a god that she never once believed in

The fam ain't been close for a while

But when soldiers fall then the conflict stops

I don't think that it's quite sunk in yet

I'm tryna feel something other than shock

Your son been there since hearing the news

And ever since then Me and Jaijai's lost

Hope you knew you was loved by many

Cuz bro it felt good reminiscing with Joss

I told Dan don't run to the bottle

Cuz the shit don't help if you do it in vein

You know it be real when the weed don't work

For a good nights sleep tryna ease this pain

Been losing my mind tryna plan your wake

But I'm tryna keep busy to keep me sane

I was in bits now I just feel angry

Tears from my eyes giving me migraines

Bro I know nuttin won't change

But the if's and but's left guilt and doubts

People keep telling me "you got this bro"

But fuck knows how im gonna figure this out

I was tryna be your light in dark

Even right from the start

And that's all that Counts

You gave me things I could never pay back

Jamesy I miss you a stupid amounts

And I know I gotta do this

Even though I don't want to

One minute you was here

Then half of my world disappeared

On the night that we lost you

And i still can't believe it

Bro why you gotta leave me?

You ain't gotta fight your demons no more Jamesy

But It don't make this easy

Rest in peace

Hours go by and my world stood still

I been pinching my skin cuz it don't feel real

Can't sleep or eat

I got family and friends tryna force me meals

Had Sam on the phone like how's this happen?

Talk to me Aaron

I got messages telling me sorry for my loss

When I'm tryna pretend that i haven't

To be honest I don't really know what I feel but

Nan said you at peace now

I was there when you left but I didn't wanna leave

I swear Jamesy i freaked out

And part of me thinks I don't wanna be strong

But we both the show goes on

Disbelief is an understatement

Like I can't believe that i've wrote this song but

I'm so glad with the bond that we had

Between us there was never words unspoken

I've been tryna strong cuz I have to

I knew it woulda killed you to see me broken

So many that years that leant on you

Whose gunna catch me if I stumble and fall?

I can't blame you for the choices you made

Cuz we never had it easy, life been cruel

Knew you was ok when I seen them foxes

I'm so glad you found Dad

Seen the sign it was crystal clear

And you steared me away

From the thoughts that I had that night

I ain't gunna lie it was bad but

This ain't the time to thinking stupid

Just gotta put my thoughts on music

Fuck sake I don't wanna do this

And I know I gotta do this

Even though I don't want to

One minute you was here

Then half of my world disappeared

On the night that we lost you

And i still can't believe it

Bro why you gotta leave me?

You ain't gotta fight your demons no more Jamesy

But It don't make this easy

Rest in peace