Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah

All my life I've tried

Traumatized and I

Can't get this shit off my mind

Everything changed when I picked up the pen

I was finally able to feel feelings again

You taught me that I wasn't allowed to feel

Talked down to my pain like it ain't real

It's very real, and I still ain't healed

Feels like the only time your pops is when you're poppin' pills

You can use your pain just to hold us hostage

But I don't care, it's not my problem its like

You wrote the book on manipulation

Cause at early ages you demonstrated

You can control a kid's life when you narrate it

There was no debating, just interrogation

Till you heard what you wanted to hear

Forced to live in the shadows, I was living in fear

Till I found a mask that I could masquerade in

You were getting high while I contemplated if I

Should take my life

You said you tried, must've missed those times, must've missed those nights

When I stayed up crying

Too many things going on in my mind then

Back then, when I didn't have a choice

Back then, when I didn't have a voice

Just did what you said to avoid a conflict

Now there's voices in my head and I can't stop them

I just want you to know all the things that you did to me

I still got scars from the damage you did to me physically

You only feel pain, no guilt, no shame, no misery

Now I got demons, they live with me, rent free

But I guess that I'm selfish for wanting your love

Yeah, I must be selfish

Cause I didn't buy you any of your drugs

Look, you're a fragment of the man that I've become

You fill your hands with what you can, you run

You had never cared about yourself

So how can you say that you would care for us

When you had let us live in a dump

Yeah, you said that you were always there for us

How can you say you're always there for us

When I spent my entire life thinking that I am not enough

All my life, I've tried

But I just can't seem to live it right

Traumatized

And I can't get this shit off of my mind

Some say that the home is where the heart is

So I guess that I am as homeless as heartless

When you were mad, I became the target

But I pushed through all the hardships regardless

Of what you said or what you thought

Made a lot of friends when I was in the dark

Where were you when I was torn apart

Picking up the pieces to restore my heart

And now, I'm left in shambles

Thought parents were supposed to set examples

Like you never did shit unless you had to

And when I'm around you, it's always bad news

I guess this sucks to suck

You always gotta go and push your luck

And now you gotta suffer

Knowing that it's your fault

That you went and lost the two of us, huh

All my life, I've tried

But I just can't seem to live it right

Traumatized

And I can't get this shit off of my mind