I'm putting my whole body into this

and since that's about two of you, this doesn’t add up

why can't I get this goddamn door to shut?

it shouldn’t surprise me at all, I know!

but I didn’t see this coming

oh sure, it'd be nice to see you

but if I ease up now, I can’t go back - what am I doing?

I'm not ready for this! I never was!

a dozen-some-odd of these

and every time I just get the shit kicked out of me

now I don’t know what to do,

because I’ve got nothing else to hide behind

once you finally get through

 

look, somewhere deep down I guess I knew

but I thought I could just will it away

then I wouldn’t fuck this up the way I always seem to

if we could just sort out a couple of things

I could catch my breath, I could just think straight

because I know, once I get into this

I don't know how to find my way out!

I know what I need to do

I just need to say something real to you

but when I'm frightened, I can't think of anything

nothing to gain, everything to lose

where fear is endless

where shame is endless

this pain is endless

can't take the endless (the endless loop)

then I sleep, then I dream

and you curl up right next to me

then I wake up in a panic

now it's here - and it's not coming out

this fear is endless (endless)

this shame is endless (endless)

this pain is endless (endless)

here in the endless (the endless loop)

can't break the endless (the endless loop)

mind full of endless you

I'm in the endless loop

chock full of endless you

I see your eyes inside my head

I feel your hands inside in my head

I hear your voice inside my head

I want you here, not in my head

I see your face inside my head

I feel your hands inside my head

can't get you out, you're in my head!

there's nothing real in this loop