New Orleans

Your eyes were calling me back to my apartment

I think that's when I started to lose myself

The feeling that came, how you paraphrased

It’s so convoluted now

I hate these dreams and I hate the way you speak to me

Cauterize the piece of your heart when you said

That you lost every bit of yourself

I said, "Deep down, I wanna believe you”

And it's the color in your eyes fading away?

Cause I'm so caught up in the feeling

(I think it’s controversial to say)

Why do I want to be so alone, like all the time?

I sit in front of your closet

Hoping for a reason for you to not care

These conversations control me

Is there anybody out there listening?

I hate these dreams and I hate the way you speak to me

Anxiety's getting the better part of me

Was all of my life disappointing?

And can you listen to this in the morning?

To entertain my fate

To not discern my certainty

I'm beginning to question what I believe

The worst part of reality

I took a sip of the poison

Coming from the bayous of New Orleans

The look on your face

Reminds me of yesterday

And I don't wanna believe you

But I just might

A part of the reason you couldn’t remember

A feeling you wanted to bring you back to the December

A common mistake and so you wanted a break

I’ll paint the weight of your words on a wall you couldn’t decide

I’m sick of how I’m wrong

Remember every song

To fix something that was never broken

A pillar of you inspired