Watch me fall asleep, with my eyes open

I hate to say it but I'll never see the day again

An open letter to myself, one more addressed to my friends

You always had my back but I have given in

It's taken too long, it's never worth it

Someday I'll find the missing piece linked to the hurt, and

I'll let it swallow me up, just like my parents did

you know, you always were right, I'm an embarrassment

These are the words I'd say to my missing self

The one the bottle took away, that's sitting on the shelf

If I could change my ways you know I always would

I guess sometimes it gets hard knowing I never could

Shades of grey, shades of black, just give it all you have

Eventually you'll see the colors start to flood right back

Shades of grey, shades of black, don't ever lose your heart

Dear yesterday, let's go back to the start

Please listen to me, you'll never see this coming

It feels good to run away from everyone surrounding

Your life, your love, your heartbreak

But drowning sorrow in pain, please don't dear yesterday.

Please listen to me, it's all I've ever wanted

I know it's easy to escape when we've all been forgotten

It feels good, it feels great, you'll never bat an eye

But don't be surprised when daylight starts to die

For so long I've sunk so low, pick me up again one more time

For so long I've lost control, stitch me up again side by side