Salem Weather

How the hell is it New Years?

What happened to the time in between

Am I in denial? Have I been for a while?

Or are things as bad as they seem?

I'm running in every direction

But never seem to get ahead

I'm getting tired of spinning my tires

I can feel a break in the bend

I don't know I don't know

Why I have hope

I'm afraid if I stay

I'll never feel whole

Bring it back to the way I used to believe, I'd have love ones who have faith in me

Get back what I gave

Have something to call my own

Got advice from my dad once he said

If you keep living like this

You'll end up forever, in the Salem weather

Shoveling snow til you break your wrist

I'll exhaust all of my options

I'm steady closing open doors

The optimist in me is lying

Face down on the floor

I don't know I don't know

Why I have hope

I'm afraid if I stay

I'll never feel whole

Bring it back to the way I used to believe, I'd have love ones who have faith in me

Get back what I gave

Have something to call my own

I'm afraid

I'll be the first to go

And you'll stay

Read my obituary

My name

Only comes with shame

And you can't bare to stand at my grave

I don't know I don't know

Why I have hope

I'm afraid if I stay

I'll never feel whole

Bring it back to the way I used to believe, I'd have love ones who have faith in me

Get back what I gave

Have something to call my own