Try as I May

Try as I may

I'm still fighting for you

In my own long-suffering way

You were meant to watch

My private ceremonies

All in the dark parts of rooms

Try as I may

To hold your crazy ass against the wall

In my scared, my scared-shitless way

You came down to see

My private ceremonies

All on the floor of this room

Try as I may

I am always kept safe

In my, in my right minded hell

You were born to hold

My cannonball brain

Like the Lord holds the moon

Try as I may

I never did seduce the wall

With my spinning and my swinging and spineless ways

Try as I may

I'm still fighting for you

In my sad, sad little rock-throwing way

You were meant to watch

Over my ceremonies

All from the dark in my shoe

Try as I may

To be heard through the wall

To be seen getting loud on the phone

You were born to break my big hairy football arms

Like clean windows kill the birds

Try as I may

I am bitching to the wall

Of my long-armed and knuckle-scraping ways

I hadn't sailed 30 feet

When I drowned in expensive clothes

For the oysters all to see

Try as I may

To love what fits in my hand

I don't, I don't