I been tryna get my mind to this point where I feel okay

Any change on the way that I show today

Thoughts of my self-hatred I keep at bay

And what you say won’t puncture my delicate stay

I digress what i often think is my best

Form of reflection ain't in my face

Instead it’s the motherfucking helpless cage

That I trapped every feeling that I got but rage

Every right that I got still feel too wrong

And every wrong that I got still fueled a song

What the fuck do I chase when I ain’t too strong

See my dreams got a pace but it take too long

Tryna get my foot in through this world of hate

And with a 2nd job now there’s a table to wait

How do I separate love from a hopeless place

And find peace in the choices I can’t embrace

This right here is my form at the purest

My heart it keep endurance, late start to my assurance

I take goals and I move em with the currents

The lessons been insurance, i can't ever have been abundance

I seen souls that’ll take and love who knows

At the chance that they find themselves in those clothes

Tryna rip all this off but that shit don’t fold

And every source that I’m citing’s what my momma told

I should pray to him

I should pray to him right?

I should pray to him

I should pray to him right?

I should pray to him

I should pray to him right?

I should pray to him

You should said I should pray to him, okay

Time past since the last time we spoke

I got deep trauma wit you provoked

I was raised in a section of hope

That mistook your guidance for the only fucking rope

I been spiteful, what’s rightful to feel?

When the lengths of my life feel destined to fail?

Is that, my fault or yours

What are you testing me for?

Can you open doors that’ll make me understand?

Can you tell me why the fuck I never got a hand?

When I pray, just silence, not even reprimands

In exchange for pain? What I get? Holy lands?

That’s what I’m fighting for, in this little time that I get to breathe as I come close

To my death, and bite through the utmost

Worst thoughts that tell me to load clips

Swerve wheels and hit poles to jump ship

I came so close to the edge of the cliff

And still couldn’t feel things you sent to lift

Bloody hands of my past outlook, ripped

And selfishly it fuels my pride to drift

Always felt way too alone but I’m back to the phone

Voicemail at a tone of my

Disgust for things that you sent me

Discuss with me please I’m empty

I should pray to him

I should pray to him right?

I should pray to him

I should pray to him right?

I should pray to him

I should pray to him right?

I should pray to him

You should said I should pray to him, okay

I got blood on my shoulder from the devil you planted

Rancid, that ransom you never gon pay that

Laid back posture while I suffer you’d rather

Watch my tears slide on a face created

Blatant with sins, the base of my whims

No patience for hymns, need a price a payment

Face it, been swimming in a tank full of greed, feel the culprit is you

On my knees for the help overdue

They ain’t even praying nowadays, that’s a image

Fear based motives know it’s always got a limit

I been looking in the mirror like damn you the same

What’s the weight of words if my hearts not in it?

Fumble to the floor where my pieces at

I got remorse with God, now my demons back

They ain’t senile, they rewired, on full attack

They sense fear and my blood spilled, smell attracts shit

Now it’s stains in eyes, view fucked by demise

Once a man recognize, what it takes for the right

To look god in the eyes, throw sins to the fire

Innocence expired, is the

Devil hired by you? In a sense he was mild

But as time pass by, flipped wild lost child

Momma said pray more, he gon be there

Momma said pray more, tell me do you hear?