intro (point of no return)

Love is strange (can’t control it)

You showed me parts of myself

I didn’t know existed

Discovered a piece of myself and wished

It wouldn’t have stopped

Thought you were my forever

But you were just my beginning

I have the worst memory because

I remember everything

Opened me up to a whole new world

And I’ve never felt that way again

Different love,

Stronger love,

Lasting love

But there’s nothing like the first

Messy, uncharted

Caught in this limbo of desperately wanting to forget

But being terrified of not remembering

When I look back on it years later

I can still see it,

Feel it,

Taste it,

Place it

Buried in the deepest parts of myself,

My most private thoughts about you,

About us,

About then

For so long I didn’t think about it,

Until one day I did.

And the only thing I could do was write about it.

Now I’m ready to talk about it

Time is funny,

The passing of life before our eyes

Can’t control it,

Can’t stop it

Don’t wanna go back,

But I miss it

Happier now,

But I miss it

So this is the story of me trying to capture it all

And I hope I can let it go.