Stare at my reflection like is this what I've become?

Feeling distant, feeling stuck, wishing I could fucking run

But I'm sinking by the minute, how much longer till I'm numb?

I know one day I'll be stable, on two feet and out the dumps

I'm being patient, getting faded off the blunts and making statements

I ain't holding back the way that I feel like I've done for ages

Fuck the anguish, fuck depression, fuck the things that make me anxious

Ain't a lot for me to do but spill my heart into creations

And escape to better places, by painting my state of mind

I've been aiming for greater heights, on the stage I'll be changing lives

I know I have what it takes, see I've grown attached to the game

So the only path I'ma take is me going mad on the page

And the passion will never fade, but the sadness will come in waves

I got habits I need to break, and got dragons I need to slay

I'm in the rain and I'm hanging on, even if I can't belong

I'll carry on, ain't putting down this pen until the pain dissolves

Lost in my head, looking for an escape

I don't wanna pretend like I've been in the best place

Cutting off the deadweight, what's it take to feel alive

If it's only an imbalance, I'll survive

Gotta thrive in the madness, rise from the ashes

I'm not the kid I was thanks to life, but it happens

Masking my pain will only get me so far

So I gotta come clean, shine a light in this darkness

I just don't know how much more I can take

Day after day depression's stirring up a storm in my brain

I feel it course through my veins, I feel it deep in my chest

But I ain't losing faith that I can put these demons to rest

I need to express the way I feel cause if I don't I'ma lose it

Alone in my room every night putting my soul in the music

Is so therapeutic, hope it'll bring me closer to blooming

I know I can do it, but in the end I only am human

Gotta keep moving, keep pushing through the hardship

Tryna break the chains, I'm sick of feeling so lethargic

Enveloped in the darkness, ain't got nowhere to turn

Only got this microphone whenever I've finally found the words

To describe what I'm dealing with inside, I can't hide forever

Time isn't ever slowing down, might as well try and get better

I'm writing this letter for me and all the ones who relate

Feeling stuck in a maze, got a little something to say

Lost in my head, looking for an escape

I don't wanna pretend like I've been in the best place

Cutting off the deadweight, what's it take to feel alive

If it's only an imbalance, I'll survive

Gotta thrive in the madness, rise from the ashes

I'm not the kid I was thanks to life, but it happens

Masking my pain will only get me so far

So I gotta come clean, shine a light in this darkness