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I'm gonna kill myself in three minutes

Yeah

I've got an obsession with death and destruction, but I keep regressing

'Cause I'm too reluctant to try and communicate, not just annihilate

Nothing inside me, there's nothing but hate

Now I'm gonna play roulette with these Percocets

Then I'm gonna pop a Xanax 'cause I'm feeling manic

I start to panic and I go satanic, I gotta take more 'cause I'm feeling low

When the alcohol and the Adderall are wearing off

It left a hole, but I don't want anybody else to know

And I'm fixated on the mutilated 'cause I get off to the X-rated type of stuff

You can barely bear to see, but that's just a portrait of my fantasy

And the Benzodiazepines are helping me, I slip 'em in drinks

It's an aphrodisiac, you get whatever you want without them fighting back

There's nothing left inside

And I deserve to die

I'm chasing the dragon now, beaten down and so burned out

The enemy is inside me

Lies of venom spewing out from the serpent's bloody mouth

I'm the enemy that's killing me

Yeah

Maybe I'll slit my wrists in the bathtub, but if it doesn't work, then I'm not any closer

Gotta have a plan B right on hand, so I guess I'll bring a backup toaster

What about a gun? That's quick and easy, blow my brains out, put it on this CD

But that's for cowards 'cause it doesn't hurt, I wanna feel the pain that I deserve

I've already tried to overdose, took too many pills but I slept it off

I'm depressed outta my mind like all time, I just wanna die, I really wanna die

I skip into manic like I'm a schizo and panic more than a young girl at the disco

I guess nothing matters like I'm Marshall Mathers, Slim Shady took over, I'm bruised and battered

I'm chasing the dragon now, beaten down and so burned out

The enemy is inside me

Lies of venom spewing out from the serpent's bloody mouth

I'm the enemy that's killing me

I need a fatal fix

Homicide then suicide, I don't need help

I just don't wanna be alone when I kill myself

I'm running out of time and I need another hit

Lethal overdose, I need a fatal fix

Yeah

But I'm not done, this isn't over like an alcoholic who claims he's sober

It's so damn boring to live the same old story over and over

Some people can never change till it goes too far, and you can't come back from the jaws of defeat

So rise to your feet, grab the world by the balls, pick your head up, stand tall

Even though you're in pain and it won't ever change, you can at least be grateful you're alive today, right?

Ah, screw it, gimme that knife, I'ma take my life

'Cause I'm all outta hope, I'll just slit my goddamn throat