Whatever It Takes

I always walked a lonely road, I always felt

Yeah, uh, uh, yeah

I always walked a lonely road, I always had friends

But felt like the kid that no one knows

I like to reminisce on life like I'm fully grown

There were times when the studio felt like my only home

If you look at my accomplishments, you might think it means something

Imagine getting everything you want but feeling nothing

Used to give advice to people, calling them deep discussions

Consumed by my ego, now I'm dealing with repercussions

Yeah, uh, I'm in a transition, my plan's different

I'm walking through a spiritual transmission

I used to credit all of my success to my ambition

I'm learning about humility, fame never satisfied

The hunger that's instilled in me, now I get to experience love

I can really see, writing verses every day is just another drill to me

And I said, baby

I've been trying my best to just stay patient

I feel so far away, but I'm still chasing

It's right there, so darling, don't be scared

I've gotta get on my own way

I'll always do whatever it takes

And I'm never letting up again

I don't deal with serpents anymore, I've had enough of them

The ball is in my hands and I ain't thinking about me fumbling

Last couple years of my life were truly humbling

I put on a front to the public but I was struggling

Cause I went from doing tours to vacuuming floors

I figured I get a job cause I just wasn't sure

I used it as an excuse cause I was scared to record

What would they say about me if they knew my reality?

I act like I'm confident, but in all actuality

There's many insecurities I'm battling

And one of them I find particularly challenging

Is my fear of embarrassment

Cause when I was diagnosed, I felt like an experiment

Trying different medications, seeing different therapists

And when I saw success in my life, was feeling glamorous

That led to braggadocio and that filled me up with arrogance

And now that I'm aware of this I feel like a fool

It makes me think about the times when I was in school

And I would make fun of others just so I could feel cool

But all of those insults said more about me than it did about them

I wouldn't say that it was hard for me to make friends

But if you asked me if I kept them I would say it depends

And I said baby

I've been trying my best to just stay patient

I feel so far away, but I'm still chasing

It's right there, so darling don't be scared

I gotta get on my own way

I'll always do whatever it takes

And I don't know if this counts as making amends

But for the sake of this verse, I'll pretend like it does

I'll drop it on the internet and they'll show me love

But deep down, I know I have a right to be judged

I just pray that I can change for my family's sake

It's not healthy to hold on to mistakes

If I never got this off my chest, I'd probably break

I'll always do whatever it takes