Why Do I Lie (When I Sing)

Why do I lie when I sing?

What is it that music brings?

Hidden in rhyme, all the the things

The jagged lines that still sting

Polished a clean

All the bright melodies

Why do I lie to myself?

Why won't I try to simply tell it?

It's not that I don't believe

It's just that I don't seem to need to anymore

It's not that I want to be free of it

It's just that I can't

Can't recall what the truth is

Can't recall

So I sing

It's not that I won't believe

Sometimes it's caught on the tip of my tongue

It's not that I need to be free of it

It's just that I can't

Don't remind me

Don't remind me

Don't remind me of all I've done wrong, no

Don't remind me

Don't remind me

I have not forgotten that

I have not forgotten that

I have not forgotten that

I have not forgotten that

No, I have not forgotten that

Standing here at the mirror

Like a ghost at the door

I used to question

I used to ask

I used to bother

I used to look between the masks

It's not that I don't believe

It's just that I don't seem to need to anymore

It's not that I want to be free of it

It's just that I can't

I've tried to capture it all on paper

I've crumpled all of it up and thrown it away

The trash man comes tomorrow anyway

He'll haul it away

It's not that I don't believe

Haul it away

It's that I don't seem to need to anymore

Haul it away

It's not that I want to be free of it

Haul it away

Except when I sing