Matinee

I think you're gonna survive this

I think you already did

The hole in your chest was quite the hit

But in the end it was matinee theatrics

Understudy in the starring role

Got disappointed when you saw the show

But you acted impressed

Of what you thought was second best

Always performing

Even seated in the audience

You're walking home through foot traffic

Trying to weave around the drunken businessmen

Your card gets declined so you ask one for swipe

Only to be denied and left there behind

You go through a phase of hiding inside

Of dark bars, walking distance from the train

You sink a couple down and hope that no one figures out

You came alone, and you will leave the same way

But at least you tried

And at least you attended

And your room became a mess

With every piece of clothing

You tried to fit

And you're standing there

In a mirror of full length

With a willingness to pretend

Enough to just get through it

Take it back to the start of the fall

When you got yourself up

Just to push who you were further off

All the boys and the weekend debauch

Left you lonely and drunk

Till you could fall asleep standing up

Take it back to the start of the fall

When you got yourself up

Just to push who you were further off

All the boys and the weekend debauch

Left you lonely and drunk

Till you could fall asleep standing up

Take it back to the start of it all

I think you're gonna survive this