My Own Hate

Tell me, how can I explain what I feel

When the pain shuts down my brain?

The fear blocks my lips

And I can't tell you why I'm like this

How can I

How can I reach clarity?

I slowly die, I lose my mind

I have the strength to get outside

But I'm afraid of my own destruction

My head is a hurricane—

Dust and black memories

I try to dominate them

And now they beat me again

Between you and I, there's a wall

Our memories

I'm freaking out, I cannot escape

These toxic thoughts are killing me

I'll never be the same again

The way I hate what I am

Between you and I, there is a wall built by burdens

Between you and I, there is a wall built by burdens

How can I reach clarity?

How can I reach clarity?

I'm freaking out, I cannot escape

These toxic thoughts are killing me

I'll never be the same again

The way I hate what I am

I feel so futile

I feel so futile

Between you and I, there's a wall

I'm freaking out, I cannot escape

These toxic thoughts are killing me

I'll never be the same again

The way I hate me

I'm freaking out, I cannot escape

The way I hate what I am

The way I hate what I am

The way I hate me