This the first punch out of many, golly

One take... ay, ay

Said lately I felt extorted

Gave my heart & intestines like Damian leaving organ (Oregon)

Distraught it taught me the lessons I thought I learned was important

Maturing into a fetus

A baby boy in the evening

A toddler by the morning

A loss of hope & its broken me

Rooming with the ghosts of my dead dreams they spoke to me

Hopefully I could stash away

My path I paved

I got it made

But right now only half-a-way

The damage like the fat I’m tryna fast away

I’m sweating out

Wrote this poem in blood so maybe you get the message now

Reminiscing , reflecting

10 steps projected I’m tryna make it 11

I’m tired of just pretending this treadmill is finna slow when I’m knowing it’s never ending

The Penrose steps that I’m sitting

I pen those thoughts & i meant it

Been rapping just like the rent due

Only write with Rivers like the council of the Trent too (two)

Astounded how we did it

A spitting image of Chris & without you, well a lotta things

A common theme

Cweed accommodating for demons

My people tell me to fight em'

It’s difficult just to meet em'

Faded out of my mind needing Visine to see them

Leaking pain from my pen I been ducking the public speaking

And for that reason I’m sorry

Never tripped on a bitch I could pop a tab on safari

Pornography prolly rotted the part of my brain respondent

For sympathizing my trauma

Simplifying my misery

Mitigated my problems

Commiserating my fibbing

I Simply wasn’t honest

Inherited from my father

Happened to be the hardest part confessing to my darkness

& living inside my comfort zone

Slipping out of my harness imagine

I take it farther to lengths that he couldn’t fathom

My daddy had always taught me to be a leader through actions

The activist of the cabinet

I'm getting mad where my bag at

Hippocampus shut off the memory that I had it

Alluded my grasp

Knew you but you from my past

Who would've thought of it as

Stupid

Lootings, shootings , institutions

When I’m praying finna ask, "do you look down in disbelief or do you laugh?"

As god laughs

Ponder how it’s funny when it’s all bad

I wonder how it’s funny when it’s sad

As god laughs

Ponder how it’s funny when it’s all bad

I wonder how it’s funny when it’s sad

(man...)

Making my fate decided

Falsifying my violence

I didn’t know what to think so he on the brink of asylum

Understanding the pain was a consequence of my problem

Been understanding the pain is a consequence of my (- ugh)

Commenting on the brotherhood

Pridefulness in my mother blood

Sheep and lions is hiding now you decide if you one to run

Two to see, three to use your head you must be fucking dumb

I made my bed with nails I’m finna lay I ain’t no fuckin punk

Endure the pain

Then it took me days to learned to disperse my weight

Letting go is harder than holding on

Know it hurts to say

My purpose in these verses is miniscule not fulfilling

But religious to this poetry that’s the way that it’s gotta stay