Dreams in a different hue

I know they're from you

I'm smoking on my porch again

Just smiling at the wind

When you left the ground I felt my body shake

It's never gonna quit until I see you again

I don't wanna feel how I did back then

Wrangling my brain over what I said

I'm lost without anyone to follow

Missing you is the hardest pill to swallow

I can't help but think so selfishly

Like why was it you instead of it being me?

Then I think back to what your mother said

About how you would've made such a great dad

You left your room so neat

I haven't left mine in weeks

And when I got to sleep

It's so I can see you again

I don't wanna feel how I did back then

Wrangling my brain over what I said

I'm lost without anyone to follow

Missing you is the hardest pill to swallow

No sense in cursing to god

Or finding your golden cross

I think it's best to keep it a secret

We all are trying so hard

For answers never to come

I think it's best to keep it a secret

I just want to feel

Like it was truly real

How does it feel

To wake up and know you're healed?