Close

Surrounded by flashing lights

And the addiction for static

And do I mention

Been causing problems either ****

Since the day I was born

The father raised me with scorn

And put my blood in my pen

I use that bitch as my sword

No weapon prospers that formed

Against me

I'll paint the picture

Hopped out of my mama's Nissan

Hopped back in my Chevy

I'm toasty

And I don't see y'all

Stay away from peons

Steady fighting my demons

And I might've took some shit from a ****

But he ain't see nun'

Maintain my composure

In the face of danger

Only emotion I'ma show a **** now is anger

As if I ran from that ****

When he pulled out his banger

I just moved closer

They had to hold me back

'Cause I was seeing red

Different circumstances now

I could really be dead

Ready to drop about some little shit

A **** said

Ready to die about a mother fucking quote

Swear to god sometimes this shit

Feels like a joke

I so t laughing no more

The realest shit I ever heard spoke

"We way too young to know this many fucking ghosts"

And looking in your eyes at that moment

I saw hope

And plus the potential for more growth

I had to pull you close

I had to pull you closer

'Cause I felt those words in that moment

And plus I needed closure

We wasn't ready when we

Growled up

I'm in a Rari doing doughnuts

Avoiding talk its too tough

But that don't matter now I'm all in

Done seen too many fuckin' coffins

Can't turn around and fall in

Hey can I come and stay the night in

But I'll be gone in the morning

(And I'm looking for closure)

I'm having nightmares

When I think 'bout the past

On the ave

Where I growed up

Unhh

Not everybody makes it out

And that's the part they never told us

But we ain't got no choice

But react

And adapt

And make sure you get to grow up

Act like you know something

Act like you know something

Act like you know

I'm taking two steps forward

And 15 backwards

Oh, this the part

Where everybody asking me what happened

Oh, this the part

Where everything I thought I knew

Is challenged

I don't know what's false

I don't know what's accurate

I don't know what's happening

We all addicted

The only thing is we living

And we are scared to admit it

That we all need some help

So 'fore I go to sleep

I'm trying to lay my thoughts

On the shelf

And take a look at them all

And maybe conquer them

One at a time

I'm trying to make it to safety

Before I run out of time

Trying to avoid being labeled

As just a paradigm

Tangled in chains and

Trapped in the middle of mazes

Amazing to say I made it

Yeah, I'm still alive

Cause shit, my daddy taught a ****

That you gotta fight

So I'll be holding on so tight

Could've broke, lonsdaleite

And when I pled my emotions

And you told me that you was knowing

And offered to come and hold me

Right before you had froze

I pulled you close

I had to pull you closer

'Cause I felt those words in that moment

And plus I needed closure

We wasn't ready when we

Growled up

I'm in a Rari doing doughnuts

Avoiding talk its too tough

But that don't matter now I'm all in

Done seen too many fuckin' coffins

Can't turn around and fall in

Hey can I come and stay the night in

But I'll be gone in the morning