Dear Dad

Dear Dad

How dare you let me think that

This was the love I deserved?

But I can't be mad

'Cause you never called me a name

That I could tell my nana so she'd understand

(Oh why)

Did you call me a criminal for smokin' weed?

(Oh why)

Did you tell me that's the only thing you knew about me?

I never smoked weed

My therapist, she told me I could be happy

If I cut my friends off 'cause they've been mean

But now I consider where that leaves me

Alone in my room eight days a week

And sometimes I think about if they could see me

Alone in my room but I'm finally happy

And when I question my mind

It betrays me

And that's what you taught me

Dear Dad

How dare you let me think that

This was the love I deserved?

But I can't be mad

'Cause you never called me a name

That I could tell my nana so she'd understand

(Oh why)

Did I find bugs in my food when I was hungry?

(Oh why)

Didn't you teach me that I was important to me?

I taught myself to love me

I taught myself to cook

I wish you could taste my recipes

But I know this distance

It saves me from harming me

And I wish I could believe my sibling

When they said I was being dramatic

But they were doin' their own thing

Sneakin' around behind my back with my ex

And he was just like you

Blinded, avoidant, self-centered, egotist

So I made my needs small

'Cause that's how I survived you

Dear Dad

How dare you let me think that

This was the love I deserved?

Now I let me be mad

'Cause you never called me a name

That made me feel like I wasn't the one to blame

(Oh why)

Did I grow up thinkin' I was the weird one?

(Oh why)

Didn't I scream back at you the way you screamed at me?

Well, now look at me.